I have not spent a great deal of time writing in the past
year. I suppose life takes over in a huge rush and some things end up on the
pile of old hockey sticks, golf clubs, & yoga mats from various hobbies taken
up in a passion & quickly forgotten.
The New year arrived in his handsome suit and sparkling
smile, with whispers of new beginnings and exciting adventures, and although he
seemed so familiar, I ignored the warnings to be careful and jumped right in
with vigour. I was starry eyed and excited. But then the handsome suit turned
to rags and the sparkling smile turned out to be dentures, and I received
a swift kick on the backside when reality came hurtling in.
This may not make sense. But basically, the last few months have been difficult for me. I have been struggling to work through the carnage that is in my head. My anxiety levels were through the roof and I have been trying
desperately to piece my self-esteem together.
The problem is that no one’s self-esteem should ever rely on someone else. If someone disappoints you, or a relationship does not
work out, it should not be the end of your world.
So I am on a path of self-realisation to build up my self esteem and just as Frodo departed from the comfort of the Shire to destroy
the ring, so I too have to take my (great) ass on a quest to learn to love
myself – see I am starting already.
Xxx
Jade
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